Be W̶i̶t̶h̶ Someone Who Makes You Happy #30dayswritingchallenge

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Day 2: things that make you happy

Back then, my happiness depended to something I expected to happen and somewhere I planned to go to. It depended to someone who left and now has another anyway. My happiness depended to all other external things that are out of my control. Through all distresses, tears, and bruises, I've learned it as a big failure of making myself happy. After years of struggles, I figured out that I'm the only one that make myself happy and now I keep on healing.

I control the feelings, the thoughts, and everything inside myself and I choose particular people, places, and stuffs that contribute my happiness. I'm the owner, I'm the decision maker if I want the genuine happiness exists.

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Things make me happy, sure thing, they do. I feel happy when I get food into my belly, purchase favorite knitted outerwear or my cozy shirts and scarfs, etc. And it's also about me controlling them. I need to understand that it doesn't have to be much. I am the one who has the control to tell the "enough" line for me, for each of us —based on our needs.

I also can be happy when my friends text me or even a barely-close one --understanding that in the 20s, people come and go. So, you possibly understand how it feels when certain people are still around to support each other. Their hellos mean a lot to me. I value their existence.

I definitely can be happy when I'm around with my family, too. Even when we literally do nothing. By knowing they're here and coming back home (to my parents' house) is such a blessing.

All in all, it isn't a matter of things we own, people we are with, or other things that make us happy. I won't let people, things, and all external things to define my happiness for I'm the only one who can affect the outcome of how I wanna react, respond, or express.

Happiness depends on me. It's ourself, at the very first place, that should make our soul happy so everything around us will always be a happiness.